My Life

As I sit here writing these words I question my existence
Why am I here?
What makes me important?
What keeps me from taking my life?
The people I know?
The ones I call friends?
The family that calls me one of their own?
Nothing matters in the end
All the memories fade and you are left a hollow shell
Without memory
Without love
Without guilt of those you left behind
What keeps me tied to this pitiful existence of mine?
What unknown force tethers me to this plane?
Everything withers and dies like the plants in winter
New ones grow but the old are forgotten
That's how I imagine myself
Replaceable.

Dr. Steinman - Aftermath

I can't believe my own nurse had the gall to call the Chief of Surgery on me! I was doing that woman on the table a favor damnit! Her face hung on her like a runny flapjack! She was an embarrassment! (deep sigh) After being taken to Ryan's office he put me under house arrest for two weeks and said how he will keep this under his hat as long as it didn't happen again..

James Walker - Sundays In Rapture

The Sundays in Rapture are like holidays,everyone's out and enjoying themselves whether it be at Fort Frolic watching a performance or at Dionysus Park shoppin'. At least Ryan isn't too tight belt about Sundays being for resting. Still with all the setting up and building to do, I'm afraid my Sundays are numbered.

Audio Diary : James Walker - Lunch In Arcadia

Today on my day off I took Lori and Tommy to Arcadia. The trees were still abit small but growing nicely. That botanist Langford is a real whiz at growing plants around Rapture. I watched Tommy play with the other kids; smiling, laughing, I haven't seen him that happy since those sunny Sunday afternoons we spent in Central Park. I think to myself, maybe Rapture isn't such a bad place after all...~*

Audio Diary : James Walker - Back From Work

Back from Hephaestus after drawing up plans for a tunnel connecting it to Neptune's Bounty. I told Ryan that the volcanic activity would make it too risky. He just said "The chain should always move but it should never be rattling" whatever the hell that means. I don't even know what time it is but Lori is sleeping and so is little Tommy. Sometimes I wonder why brought them down here....~*